Haven't posted in awhile, because it's been a relatively quiet month. Bio Mom has set up 3 visits with Sweet Pea in January and canceled every single one of them. Just got a request for another visit. Caseworker told me after this visit (if bio Mom shows) she will be permitted one more final good-bye visit. I am curious whether she will show for either, whether she will complain that she wants more visits until her termination date in a month, and whether she will confront me about post adoption contact. She has only seen Sweet Pea about 10 times in her almost 14 months of life. Being a foster adoption parent, at least from my perspective, is really, really hard sometimes. My emotions are so torn-I am so happy for me that visits are stopping and we are moving to my little Sweet Pea becoming part of our forever family....yet , as a decent Christian human being, also feel a tug at my heartstrings for bio Mom, who no matter how unfit to parent, will have to say good-bye to her children soon. As a parent myself, I would be devastated. I truly pray that bio Mom is able to defeat all the demons in her life, and go on to be happy and productive.
Blessings to you,
The Queen Mama