Good Evening out there crazy internet land,
How do you even go about starting a post? I mean really I probably started this thing about 5 different ways and what you just read was what I went with. Nice. By now you are probably wondering who is this dork the Queen let on her blog, well let me introduce myself...
I am Momma L. I have 4 little bits in my crew and a fabulous groom at my side. What's even better is I have an Awesome Lord guiding my way. This past year has been a wild ride in our house so I will try to give you the highlights as they pertain to the course of adoption.
Instead of your shame you shall have double honor; And instead of confusion they shall rejoice in their portion. Therefore in their land they shall possess double; Everlasting joy shall be theirs." Is 61:7
This is a very important verse to me, to put it short, God layed this verse on my heart in a not so subtle way and spoke to me about adoption with it. Now I had always had in mind that I would love to adopt...some day. Both my husband and I thought that, in fact we had recently, well a year prior to this verse, taken the PRIDE class. So it was on our hearts, just not pressing I would say.... until then.
Then it became pressing. We had previously discussed that when we adopt we would seek to adopt someone of Native American decent, because of ICWA it almost makes native kids a special need finding adoptive home sometimes. Sooooo back to the verse, I feel like I am rambling, I think I do that, I type how I would talk, sorry haha:) So you will notice that I said I recieved confirmation that it was time to adopt... the hubs didn't. Even after I lavished upon (please insert verbal vomit for lavished) about how I actually heard from the Lord, and Ohemgee, yada yada... he just looked at me and said "oh" or something equally heart warming. Now mind you at this point- so very very early I, me myself my plans, was thinking we would be welcoming a child around the age of 3/2.
Let's jump ahead a few months there was a question of a cousin, and we really prayed hard about it during that time. We really prayed for God's will and His timing and as I look back it was. But after that there was much trial in our life, much. After the trying time was when my husband really said that's it, we gotta go forward with thing, get those papers in. Then shortly after that the opportunity we thought was gone was back on the table. My cousin. You might think that we just jumped right in with both feet, but we prayed first, then answered.
This journey has been by no means an easy one, as one would think considering that we are dealing with family. In some ways it makes it harder. Social workers expect things to move through quick and easy because everyone is all family, well I expect social workers to do the job that they are to do and not take the easy way. I did not expect this road to be easy or without frusteration, and I also know that I am far from over, but I do find solace that God built this from the start. He chose her to be parented by us. He could have chosen any child and still might choose more for all I know, the verse does make me a little nervous as with the usage of "double" lol. But no matter what goes on God is with us, and as you can see from my blog, we have had many things go on. It is also nice knowing that there is others out there in your same boat.
I was very hesitant as to share my story, we are not the legal parents yet, and I do have a fear of this SW getting another bee up her skirt about me, but I trust that those out there will honor my words and not share things without permission and more importantly need to hear another voice that is feeling what they are feeling. I know that frusteration, I know that agony of the child that cries in the middle of the night and you don't know why. A ridiculous fit, a holler that you aren't the real mom, unanswered emails, and voicemails. I understand, because I have been there. I am there and God is with me.
If you would like to know about our journey, please visit http://is617everlastingjoy.