I took Princess for her visit with Bio Dad today. We always arrive before he does and sit in the waiting area. She is always oblivious to him when he comes in. Today, however, when he said hello to her, she ran to him and put her arms up. I was taken aback. I must admit it tugged at my "green" heartstrings. Does she feel a connection to him? He only recently started seeing her a couple of months ago. The counselor who watches him during their visits says he never gets up out of the chair. He doesn't interact with her much. Could it be a biological pull? Or was it just impulsive because she recognizes him now?
I have to remember that no matter
how much we want to adopt this little one, he is still her father, even
if he doesn't have the ability to fully take care of her. We have no
rights until his are terminated. I again was quiet today when I spoke
to him. I didn't say the things I wanted to say. I am always kind when
we have conversations. He is always cordial and has never said a rude
thing to us. Does that make it any easier? No. My heart aches every
single time I think about her possibly going back to him. In our
hearts, she is already our daughter. 49 days until her final placement
hearing. Please pray for her, her bio family, our family, and that
God's will be done.